On a completely personal note...

I am pretty proud of me, most of the time, but sometimes I get all afraid of being me.  Of openly admitting the fact that along side all the award winning and amazing pieces of art that are film I enjoy I also like movies that are without a doubt terrible.  I'm sorry world but I still like Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen's "New York Minute".  I like tv shows that have no plot simply because I enjoy watching the dance number and like the music (we all know what I am talking about glee... though I will say the first season was actually pretty good tv).  I like eating ice cream for a meal and taking a vitamin because in my mind that works out in the end.

I get afraid of admitting that I am scared of failure.  I have never failed at anything I have tried to do... I may have not been the best but never fully failed.  It might weird people out that  I still wear my retainer on a weekly basis even though I got my braces off almost a decade ago!  What will people think if they hear that I actually don't like the taste of Chicken!  I mean it just tastes like what you but it with so it is like the meat version of tofu.

Will the world forgive me for hating Chocolate chip cookies?

Can I admit that I like mismatched household items and that buying even discount underwear makes me feel guilty at times?

To all of this I say: I am deciding not to care.  It will take some time and adjustment but who cares.

"Life's too short" Finn from Glee.

1. Vintage

2. Word or quote

 

3. Nature's Own

Why yes,I do always have a bouquet chillin... doesn't everybody ; P

4. People

5. Photographer's Choice

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Transitions

Okay so as  child did you ever get super excited at Christmas time when the Toy R Us book came in the mail (I do use the word "Book" on purpose cause I'm pretty sure it was over 80 pages long)?  My sister and I used to sit down for hours and slowly comb over the pages of that book of goodies to see all the details of every toy.  In the end we would talk about "What would you do if you had that one?"    Now that I think on it, our practice hasn't much changed just different books.  I look over the steamy pages of NikonUSA.com and drool over every item and think "I would take pictures all over with that lens"

Back to the message, we would always look through these pages to see what was in them but never did we think or even really want them (with some exception I did really want the Mouse trap game... though after playing it once I was SO glad that I didn't get it) but it was more just seeing the pretty pictures.  I was raised in a family where we were less then well off.  We all knew that we had to chip together to make life work and that gifts were more about the effort and heart behind the gift then what you actually unwrapped.  So when your brother gives you an old barbie doll whose head has been ripped off and now is wedged so far down her neck, in order to stay on, she looks to permanently have put on most of my mother's shoulder pad infused clothes from my childhood it was just as amazing as getting a brand new pair of roller blades... well at least in spirit it was as amazing.

So when I got married and our first Christmas came around, my in-laws asked me for a list.  I didn't understand what they meant, I had to ask Chris.  "They mean a list of stuff you want."  I stared blankly at him.  I legitimately couldn't think of anything to write down.  After much time pen in hand slowly tapping my lip as I stare aimlessly off into the distant left ceiling all I could think of was "needs" three Toilet paper, a new trash can and a baking spatula... I was informed these were not list material.  So now every time I come across something I want I immediately write it down because I will not remember when the time comes round each year where both my b'day and Christmas fall in the same week...

1. Water

2. Light

3. Chocolate

4. Animal

5. Crowded

After a nice long day of travel to to go the DC "The Fix" I haven't done much else but sit here and brainstorm... hence the cutter/crowding on my coffee table.

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Geek references galore

Whenever I get a good photo ID I feel like Gollum.  Not so far as hiding in a dimly lit cave, hunch on a rock stroking the plastic card murmuring "My precious" or anything but I'm not above fighting away some clones with my light saber (if I had one... OH that should go on my "wanted list") to keep it protected.  

As I look over my old passport with last goodbyes before I had it over to get an accurate and valid one for my new adventures (I state it with confidence cause I will have adventures and they will be AWESOME).  I have none of these protective feelings.  I'm pretty sure they took this shot in between me doing an Elvis "thank you, thank you very much" impression and a sneeze.  My calics are acting up and my hair is a bit too long... Oh, wow... Just had a realization that none of you know something about me that is quite shocking... but that's for another post.  Point being instead of fighting away Lord Sauron's men I kind of want to step aside and say "Plunder away"

Here's to hoping the new shot will be more like Micheal Jackson's "oooooH" face mixed with a yawn!

1. Routine

2. Music

3. Technology

4. Show me your style

5. Mismatch

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Best friend of the week

Weekends are the best.  No questions asked no doubt about it.  You disagree?  You're wrong.  Sorry you had to find out this way but you are dead wrong ;P  You see weekends mean unlimited time with Chris.  Weekends mean weddings, shoots and time capturing real moments whether behind the camera or with a metal image.

When my weekends come to a close it is like wishing a close friend goodbye.  I totally understand that without the week (to a degree) the weekends wouldn't be as awesome as they are but still.  I wish I had a remote for life and just press pause on time.  Snuggling on the couch, fire roasting and something playing in the back ground as I laugh my way through the day hand in hand with Chris.  Yup: I'm a fan of weekends.


1. Crossed

2. A Glimpse

3. Handwritten

Small story about this one:  When Chris and I started "dating-but-not-really-dating"  (Yea, I don't get it either... apparently it is common in the south)  I had a lot going on and no way to outlet it.  All my college friends had graduated the year before with my sister and I was alone more often then not trying to deal with everything I was doing and feeling (Chris was my first boyfriend... I know how do you make it to 21 with out a boyfriend) so I wrote in journals and unsent letters to Chris.  I literally would go through a composition book in a week with all my writing.

4. Bliss

I want a vacation, plain and simple.  Agreed?

5. Gray

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Laugh at me, with me

*Deep exhale* "I can do this" is my mantra to myself as I take the long walk from my bedroom. . .

To my computer?  Why is this so hard? You tell me cause I don't get it.  I am just trying to be myself but it is harder than you would think.  I don't know what it is. . . I mean it should come natural since you know it's well, me.  But somehow nope.

It is like when I first met my in laws.  My husband and I were really close friends for years, three years to be exact, but we went from dating to married in less then 10 months!  I know we are a bit crazy.  So when I finally got to meet my now in laws I was really worried, I mean I knew, being me, that I wanted to marry Chris before he even asked me to date him, so in my mind when I met his parents I was meeting my parents to be.  I knew that being myself was the only option but all the sudden I felt like Jack from 30 Rock  "could I get two coffee cups?"  All the sudden the simple things like walking and talking seemed a bit more complicated than a Rubik's Cube!

I feel that way now.  I look over those I idolize in my field the Katelyn James's, the Jasmine Star's... they seem to not only be completely at ease with being themselves they are also brilliantly hilarious all the time.  I look over their posts and tweets looking for the secret.  I sit there with a blinking empty cursor waiting to type something but all that comes to mind is bananas.  Why bananas?  Your guess is as good as mine.

So I say to you world: laugh at the hilarity of me not being able to be me cause that's what I do.

1. Love

This photo needs a little description.  These flowers are the first flowers Chris ever gave me keeping me in mind all the things that make me crazy... like the fact I am super pragmatic.  At the time he worked events and these were left over from a wedding he had worked before we met up for a late night date.

2. Duplicate

3. Trend/trending

4. Paper

5. Plastic

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