*Deep exhale* "I can do this" is my mantra to myself as I take the long walk from my bedroom. . .
To my computer? Why is this so hard? You tell me cause I don't get it. I am just trying to be myself but it is harder than you would think. I don't know what it is. . . I mean it should come natural since you know it's well, me. But somehow nope.
It is like when I first met my in laws. My husband and I were really close friends for years, three years to be exact, but we went from dating to married in less then 10 months! I know we are a bit crazy. So when I finally got to meet my now in laws I was really worried, I mean I knew, being me, that I wanted to marry Chris before he even asked me to date him, so in my mind when I met his parents I was meeting my parents to be. I knew that being myself was the only option but all the sudden I felt like Jack from 30 Rock "could I get two coffee cups?" All the sudden the simple things like walking and talking seemed a bit more complicated than a Rubik's Cube!
I feel that way now. I look over those I idolize in my field the Katelyn James's, the Jasmine Star's... they seem to not only be completely at ease with being themselves they are also brilliantly hilarious all the time. I look over their posts and tweets looking for the secret. I sit there with a blinking empty cursor waiting to type something but all that comes to mind is bananas. Why bananas? Your guess is as good as mine.
So I say to you world: laugh at the hilarity of me not being able to be me cause that's what I do.
This photo needs a little description. These flowers are the first flowers Chris ever gave me keeping me in mind all the things that make me crazy... like the fact I am super pragmatic. At the time he worked events and these were left over from a wedding he had worked before we met up for a late night date.